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and there's room for two, six feet under the stars

fkdupvisions — 2008-08-11T23:16:22Z

Michael Guy Chislett and Andy "Butcher" Mrotek

fkdupvisions — 2008-07-06T21:59:32Z

i have a stalker

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-31T20:21:00Z

and shes the bestest stalker out there!
wayy cooler than all the other stalkers!

her name is tat
add her on:
http://envym3.buzznet.com

throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the great escape

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-29T04:41:20Z

i think i need a hug

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-29T02:22:00Z

Life pretty much sucks at the moment. I feel sick as hell, I have half yearly exams in 2 days and i know abso-fucking-lutely nothing, and my dad is sicker than what we originally thought. It fucking sucks balls majorly, I miss the days when everything was simple and the toughest decision to be made was what colour ice block you wanted.

I need a hug.
=[

I guess I should call my sister and tell her about it all.

Though a plus in the past few days is that an australian Panic at the Disco tour was announced and THE ACADEMY IS... and COBRA STARSHIP are supporting them. In all honesty I could care less about Panic... touring, all that matters to me is The Academy Is... and Cobra Starship and I'm more then willing to pay the $90 for the show, though its going to sell out shit fast.

hehehehe XD

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-25T02:52:03Z

big bucket of candy from kelsey thats 1kg of sugar and food colouring =D *goes into sugar coma*

suck my kiss

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-23T01:04:01Z

awesome shirt made by louise when we went to the chili peppers show she and caroline have similar/matching ones =] left=front, right=back of shirt

hehe i love him =]

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-23T01:04:00Z

Save You

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-07T02:25:00Z

take a breath
i pull my self together
just another step
until i reach the door
you'll never know the way
it tears me up inside to see you
i wish that i could tell you something
to take it all away

sometimes i wish i could save you
and theres so many things that i want you to know
i wont give up til its over
if it takes you forever
i want you to know

when i hear your voice
its drowning in the whispers
you're just skin and bones
theres nothing left to take
and no matter what i do
i can't make you feel better
if only i could find the answer
to help me understand

sometimes i wish i could save you
and theres so many things that i want you to know
i wont give up til its over
if it takes you forever
i want you to know that

if you fall, stumble down
i'll pick you up off the ground
if you lose faith in you
i'll give you strength to pull through
tell me you wont give up
cos i'll be waiting if you fall
you know i'll be there for you

if only i could find the answer
to take it all away

sometimes i wish i could save you
and theres so many things that i want you to know
i wont give up til its over
if it takes you forever
i want you to know

i wish i could save you...
i want you to know...
i wish i could save you...

(L)

when darkness falls, we are reborn

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-02T01:09:56Z

the amount of pills of taken, cataracts of booze ive dranken

fkdupvisions — 2008-03-01T12:01:07Z

i made this in like year9 and just found the pic today when i was cleaning up my comp =] also thanx goes to betty for modelling for me!

picture perfect, pathetic.

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-27T22:52:00Z

im incredibly bored and i cant be fucked doing my maths homework, so i thought i'd make a list of the tattoos im planning on getting in the years to come.

1. Treble/Bass Clef in the centre of my back. You'd probably have to see the drawing to picture it but i cant be bothered scanning up the pic so i'll just say that its a treble clef that is merged with a bass clef. I want it on my spine to symbolise that music is my life line and how i find my balance in this world.

2. I want 2 swallows on the contour of my hips and i possibly want one alive and the other with it's eyes crossed out. I'm not sure about that yet.

3."I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone." in cursive writing. I'm not particularly sure where i want it done yet. So far I've come up with either a ring of lyrics around my thigh or have it underneath the treble/bass clef.

4. A nautical star in black and red just above my right elbow. Not too big, maybe about 4x4 cm.

5. A small lightning bolt behind my right ear, black outline and filled in yellow.

6. The Thursday dove, not sure where yet.

7. My families names in cursive around my ankle, though im not sure if it'll fit so i might get the letters of everyone's first names somewhere else instead.

8. On my left wrist "Life" and on my right wrist "Death" both in cursive.

That's all for now, the list will undoubtedly grow as the days go by.

say goodbye, close your eyes for the last time

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-27T09:33:45Z

i cant believe this is gonna be their last tour ever =[ but its going to be great with bring me the horizon and the red shore, which wont be the same without damo and andy

and there's room for two, six feet under the stars

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-25T02:41:00Z

me and zack merrick best day everrrr! =D

fuck =[

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-23T02:01:00Z

The last two days have been pretty shit. On friday i found out that one of my friends tried to commit suicide. At least it was only suicidal thoughts and attempt and i didnt lose them. Also on friday some dude died at a train station and that screwed up the entire system, so i got stuck at 2 different train stations in fucking disgusting hot, humid weather.
When i finally get to my stop i find out my mum is in the doctor's office again. When i was younger my mum got really sick and was pretty much on the verge of death. In the past few years she's been getting better but in the past few months everything has gone down the drain and it fucking sucks.
As if one parent sick isn't enough, 2 years ago my dad got really sick and was in hospital for 2 months, half of which was spent in ICU. The doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with him, only coming up with a 'suspected diagnosis' of lupus. While he was there he nearly died numerous times, all from different causes. Well he was kind of getting better though still really weak since he got released, and to make my weekend even better [sarcasm], he seems to be getting sick again with exactly the same thing that sent him to hospital the first time round.
With all this crap going on in the family i feel as though i shouldn't be having a goodtime or leaving to go to soundwave tomorrow. The only person in real life i feel as though i can talk to about these things is my sister and i'll have the car ride to soundwave to talk to her about things but afterwards i'm gonna have mates in the car on the way back so that means no talking about it then. She's also leaving to go overseas on Tuesday for over a month, so that leaves me with pretty much no one and i trust to confide my thoughts to. I'm not gonna try to stop her though, after all the shit she has gone through, through life she deserves a holiday. It's no just a hoiday for her either, she's going to a Vietnam, a third world country, to help out orphans and give them a better outlook in life and i'll support her 100% in her endeavours.
Hopefully tomorrow will have a better outlook, but knowing my recent luck something is bound to fuck up and ruin my day. Of course i have a major english assessment the day after a big day out.
Gee i sound like a whiney bitch in this blog, but this seems like the only place where i can vent my thoughts. I don't want to talk to my parents about it because i don't want them to worry about me and get worse, i don't have that same connection with my oldest sister and i don't want to bother my younger older sister with my problems when i know she has her own. I feel as though i cant trust some of my friends with it, and those that i do they are in situations 10 times worse then mine.
I really need to go study but in the mood I'm in the only thing i want to do is listen to music and/or go for a walk. Hmm, maybe i'll go talk to my dog, he always makes me feel better.

Well thank you to anyone who actually bothered to read my train of thought for the moment, I apologise for wasting 10 minutes of your time that you probably could've done something enjoyable in.

xxo
quan

Top 10 Songs

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-20T22:44:00Z

This is a list of my personal favourite songs at the moment/of all time.

10. This Time Imperfect - A.F.I

9. Stay Together for the Kids - Blink 182

8. Konstantine - Something Corporate

7. Hands on Deck - Waking Ashland

6. Sleeping with Giants (lifetime) - The Academy Is...

5. The Artist in the Ambulance - Thrice

4. Stare at the Sun - Thrice

3. The Taste of Ink - The Used

2. Cancer - My Chemical Romance

1. Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
i am not afraid to keep on living
i am not afraid to walk this world alone.
i dont care if this song is 'mainstream' or if you think my chemical romance have sold out. this band still mean the world to me and their music keeps me going.

grrr

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-16T20:41:00Z

So my computer/internet connection is being a bitch. I haven't been able to do anything on the net, not even check my emails. Thankfully I can still sometimes go on buzznet and myspace, but only if I'm lucky.
And I also have a pretty awful sunburn across my shoulders. It hurts =[. Stupid swimming carnival, and it was a shit swimming carnival as well. I think I might just stick to being pale instead of going through this pain again.
-_-

On the other hand Soundwave is in exactly one week and I get to go see so many of my favourite bands and meet Jona from Bleeding Through/ex-I Killed the Prom Queen. Hopefully the day/night won't tire me out to quickly because I have a pretty important English assessment the next day at school.

well thats all that's on my mind at the moment, and I'm just procrastinating over doing my maths homework and it's not like anyone reads this anyway.

toodle-oo
xo
quan

P.S. Quick question: Should i get a new PC, a laptop or a macbook?

these city lights will never be as beautiful as your eyes

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-10T22:38:00Z

This message made my weekend =] I finally get to meet my idol.

15 Random Facts

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-09T23:15:00Z

1. I'm from Chinese descent but my family was raised and speaks Vietnamese.

2. I'm in my last year of high school.

3. I'm a nerd =P. I go to a nerd school and have nerdy and not-so-nerdy friends.

4. Music makes my heart swell.

5. My family is pretty fucked up but I love them no matter what.

6. My real life heroes are Pewe, Ngan, James, Xuol, and Chinh.

7. I still cant drive because I'm too lazy to go get my license.

8. I have slight Obsessive Compulsive behaviours.

9. I take random walks in the middle of the night to go to the park.

10. Sometimes I wish I was a vampire.

11. Some days I want to be older and leave everything behind, others I never want to grow up.

12. I hate clowns and bugs.

13. I love late nights.

14. I drink tea and/or coffee daily.

15. I have a fluffy white dog names Peanuts, he rocks!

sweetest thing ^_^

fkdupvisions — 2008-02-05T03:29:00Z

someone said the sweetest thing to me the other day

"the only thing that scares me about dying is leaving you"

...

i love you!
<3

^_^